IDK HOW TO REST LIKE AKA I DON'T BREATHE VERY WELL // i'm on holiday (#totallyambritish) + PRETTY PICS


I'm getting older. I admit it bc it's truth, right? and it feels like as every second passes by, I'm speeding along with it, unable to keep my head very high above the water (jsyk there will probably be a lot of water metaphors in this post #beeninthelakeallday) I want the best of each moment. I want to live and live and live without burning out (oh and fire metaphors #campfire) but here is the deal 

I CAN'T. 

bc i get tired and grumpy and exhausted and last night I slept for 9 hours straight. Guys, that was the most I've had in...like...i don't even know how long. the fact is, I don't know how to rest, relax..chill. at all. 

Right now, I'm on a spontaneous holiday. *grins at shelby* legit, not even two full days to plan for a week away in a cabin on the lake so ya know, we threw some bags together and left. Just like that. and my mind was screaming WHAAAAAAT HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN bc I plan things. I have a massive to-do list. I work all day and then cram things I want to do at night and it's like..is this good for me? probably not????? *sits quietly and blinks* 

so what do I do? I DO IT EVERY DAY. 

I was sitting in the dock tonight just sitting - I was thinking about how often I am quiet and legit how rare that is. (i have problems talking ok?) Quiet hurts. We all know this...it's a strange mixture of nothing and volumes of loudness. I admit it. I don't like it really...which is why I just go and go until I can't anymore. but, I need to stop that. from what I've heard, resting is pretty nice.

tomorrow is the solar eclipse. I must admit, I find it kinda scary. I don't think I'll be looking at it...I saw an article of an guy who has permanent damage in his eye since the solar eclipse in 1962. no thanks, lol.

Right now, my family is watching the old Ma and Pa Kettle episodes. They are wonderful and make me laugh. My hair is wet bc sarah and I went out on paddle boards at dark to watch the rest of the sunset and my face is sunburnt. I'm full with s'mores and hamburgers and laughs. It's beautiful to learn how to rest. 

I'm going to end this post short for today. I think it seems right, don't you? perhaps we all need to relax for a bit. It's surprising how lovely it is to sit and stare into the middle of nowhere for once. (except I can't help but think about my garden at home lol) 

also. packing is weird. You pack a billion things then just end up wearing the same few items over and over again. I need to learn the tricks. help? + what's your favorite photo???

HOW DO YOU REST?!??!
WHERE DID YOU GO TO ON HOLIDAY THIS YEAR? 

soooo tell me IS IT DONUT OR DOUGHNUT ?? // I THINK I AM OBSESSED WITH POSTING SKY PICTURES HEHEE also summer


I was looking through my phone notes and there was legit this ; 


I burst out laughing and then was like "okay this actually deserves to be a post " so here we are. so like WHAT IS IT?! Generally, there are two different ways of spelling favorite or favourite or grey vs gray or neighbor or neighbour but these are like bc of the British or Canadian English versions.


Donut or Doughnut? Nope. They are just...well...two ways of spelling the same word everywhere. They both are even considered incorrect by spellcheck. It's quite literally a word which you get to D E C I D E  how you want to spell it *grins* 

also I guess there is a lot of disruption over which way it should be spelled so lets not do that but legit just say how you generally write it XD I can't even remember how I do.... I'm normally a doughnut person tho?? WHICH I AM VERY PROUD TO SAY IS ACTUALLY HOW IT IS TRADITIONALLY DONE HEHEHEE just ask google. 

RANDOM DONUT FACTS *julia spells it the opposite way just to be kind* 

  • julia had a doughnut today (k so that's not really an important fact. roll with it) 
  • the largest donut ever made was an american made jelly donut weighing 1.7 TONS. it was 16 feet in diameter and 16 inches high in the center. OH MY GOODNESS RIGHT
  • canada has more doughnut shops than any other country (sarah said we should move there)
  • June 1st of 2018 will be national doughnut day PREPARE YOURSELF 
  • there are real taco, grilled cheese, and seaweed donuts. 
  • you would need 253,440 doughnuts on a string to reach across the grand canyon 
  • and only 3,660 to reach the top of the statue of liberty 
  • there is something called a cronut which is basically a croissant-doughnut. well. it has 1,330 calories in one. an adult should only eat about 2,400 in a day......................
  • people say that bakeries are never robbed bc the police officers hang around so often 
  • Entenmann’s bakery turns out 100,000 doughnuts every hour, 15 million every week, 780 million every year


I'm not quite sure how I'm supposed to walk around now after finding these facts out. WHO KNEW DONUTS COULD BE SO WEIRD?!?!? I mean. gosh. but let's admit it. they. are. so. good. *moans cuz i want more* 


so yesterday marked 1 entire year of my poetry blog's existence. THAT MEANS ITS BASICALLY A BIRTHDAY PARTY SO *gives everyone doughnuts* also yesterday I posted my 1 0 0 T H  POEM NOT EVEN JOKING. can I say I'm proud of myself? I mean...yeah that's vainly weird but it's also honest. I didn't really ever think of myself as a poet and now I'm slightly unable to stop?? SO YES VOLUME 2 OF MY POEMS ARE IN PROGRESS EEEP. 

also idk what my obsession with sky photos is. sorry... guess you're stuck with them. 

p.s. i wrote this post at midnight sunday night....then scheduled it for 6 am the next day. WELL GOSH OH GOLLY JULIA IS DUMB BC SHE FORGOT THAT WHEN MIDNIGHT HAPPENS A NEW DAY DOES TOO. so here i am, posting this after working all morning. you're welcome

SO HOW DO YOU SPELL DO(UGH)NUT??
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE KIND?

NIGHTTIME SKY LOVE + what do you do when you are scared out of your wits?? // #thoughtsoftheju


I just cleaned my laptop screen for the first time since purchasing it and HEY GUYS? ITS PRETTY AMAZING. go clean your laptop. I'm sure it needs it. *becomes human who obsessively removes smudges now* ahem. But, let's move onto more important topics. Like  f e a r 

fear

noun
1.
a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc, whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.

I'm actually kinda curious here. I almost don't want to make this a post filled with advice and stuffs...but hahah lets face it. It'll probably turn out that way. I would really like you to ask yourself before you read any further one question though. Write down the answer in the comment box if you want...but here it is - WHAT ARE YOU SCARED OF????? 

Because admit it. There is a lot to be scared about today. like


  • what we are eating/whats in it/what happened to it/where it came from/how it was made
  • that time is slipping away and it'll never come back
  • government. (not going any further but ikr) 
  • going back to school or leaving for college (PLUS ALSO TAKING A GAP YEAR. thats scary too k)
  • THAT MY HEADPHONES MIGHT DIE YIKES
  • walking into walmart. am i the only one? 
  • the dark (wait is that just me?..... jk jk jk *nervous chuckle*)
  • meeting new people #introvert
  • THAT BIG THING CALLED CHANGE *runs away in utter fear*
  • not being able to find those two dumb pennies at the cash register AND THERE IS A LINE

That's hardly even a list. It took me a few seconds to compile that. We are humans and GOODNESS we have fears. It's natural. Now here is the second question I want you to answer... WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU ARE SCARED? 

  • run away in fear?
  • face it and yell for it to go away?
  • learn to not be scared anymore? 
  • flop onto your bed and scroll on pinterest? 

Don't be scared to be honest here. I've done them all. there have been days where fear takes me a hold so strong. There is a legit thing called the fight or flight reaction. IT IS REAL. I've experienced it. I never really thought I would be the type of person who would run when afraid...but yup. And, fighting? I've done that as well. 

there is just one thing. I get so beat down sometimes and its like "that's it. this is the end." #dramatic BUT TRUTH YA KNOW. It isn't just me who feels this way. i know it. So....what do I do? 

I do it again. and again. and again. which is basically failure....another one I should have added up on that list blah. But, being afraid is a trap. Listen to what God has to say about fear.

Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name. You are mine. (Isaiah 43:1)
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. (2nd Timothy 1:7) 

There is truth in these words. And, strength. We've got power in Christ to shake away from fears which holds on tight. You can hold onto only one thing, I'm afraid. I've seen it in myself.


F E A R S  V S  C O U R A G E  


I believe I would find it hard to grasp if you told me you enjoy being afraid...bc nobody does, k? Let's be real with each other. GUYS WE DONT HAVE TO BE AFRAID. JESUS HAS SET US FREE. Don't hold onto fear when you can hold onto something so much better with so many more exciting things ahead. Let's beat the things which have a grip on us. 

plus. There are only so many days left. Live them full. 

btw. here is another things I'm terrified about. I SENT MY BOOK OUT TO ALPHA READERS PRAY FOR ME. 


SO WHATCHA AFRAID OF??
WHAT DID YOU DO THIS WEDNESDAY?(whoops its thursday now?)

WE WENT CAMPING AND IT WAS TOTALLY CHEATING CUZ POP-UP CAMPER HEHEE // how i won july camp nano 2017


I absolutely love camping. Like roughing it would totally be my thing but I live in a family of mainly planners, so its kinda like you get out there in the forest (i mean campground) and its like "okay I somehow have to flip this pancake" *goes to look for stick* *sister runs up with metal spatula* LEGIT. oh well. someday I can camp like Miss Meg does. SRSLY GIRL YOU LIVE THE COOLEST LIFE. 

but still. It was the best. I ACTUALLY READ 80 PAGES OF A BOOK IN ONE SITTING I DONT EVEN KNOW THE LAST TIME I DID THAT gooooosshh. like I said -- amazing. I also ate a few hotdogs and a lot of marshmallows + I got to stargaze under a sky full of the most amazing sparkling holes i've ever seen. 

sarah + me in camper : *both have soda cans* *me put mine down and goes back to reading* *sarah is reading and picks up soda can* *.3 seconds after slurp* 
-sare - "OH MY WORD EWWWWWW THAT WAS YOUR CAN" 
-me 


We also went hiking. We've been to this park loads of times before but never have been on this part of the trail before. GUYS. IT. WAS. AMAZING. like the elevation was spectacular. *dies at the photos which i didn't include* It's crazy to realize there are so many little hidden spots never seen before ONLY MOMENTS AWAY HOW EVEN. 

also lets all acknowledge the fact that it is now August. *runs away crying* 

But truthfully, camping was in part stressful because it was during the last weekend before NaNo ending and I still had 3k to write, which let's admit it, THAT IS STRESSFUL. I ended up getting back home to an incredibly torn apart bedroom (i had to re-paint my bedroom floor #longstory) and just plopping down on my bed to publish comments. Then, I heard a ding from hangouts and saw Savannah asking for a word war. I typed "I can't right now..but maybe later because I have to leave in 10 minutes." then erased that and was like JULIA JUST DO IT YOU'VE GOT 10 MINUTES. 

Before I knew it, I was writing super fast and had met my goal + went 500 words over within 1 1/2 hours. *is still blown away* so yes. I AM A 2017 JULY CAMP NANO WINNER. *fist bumps* 

I guess that was just one of those times that moved me to realize that I have to stop telling myself that I CANT do something when geesh, I CAN. same goes for you, k. 


It's like 66 degrees and I think it is the 4th of August? Not sure. #summerliving (also deep apologizes for all of you who are going back to school very, very soon. I almost wish I were joining you...)

I'm off for an adventure of nerf library fun. Not sure if I get to play or have to walk around supervising -- either way, I'll have fun. 


WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS FRIDAY??
EVER BEEN CAMPING BEFORE? 




RIP JULY 2K17 WE SHALL MISS YOU DREADFULLY // join me in my long post of silly stuffs i did (that includes nano)


M Y  B R A I N :

gardening and listening to Sarah plain and tall audio drama and being like "woah this sounds like Glenn Close" and then reading back of case to see IT IS GLENN CLOSE

thinking the eggs were going bad soon so I made like a lot a lot then seeing the expiration date was was for the end of July hahaa


i cracked up so hard over that cactus ^

I really really thought the librarian left the H off of "through" on the Break Out event for a reason but really it was a typo


being in Walmart and a guy just jumping on a bike then riding off

okay so apparently I can't pump ketchup at Wendy's hahahha


my dad asked me to get wrapping paper when I went out that day - I wrote down this note to remember. then I read the note that afternoon at the store and knew to get wrapping paper. I just now realize what it actually says. ^

*am walking* *am thinking* *is thinking oh boy I feel like I know this lady* *isnt watching my feet* BAM *trips over large cement object* *lady glares at me*
me - "I didn't see that."


so I was at a restaurant the other day. I helped clear the table cuz the waitress was really tired - after I did that this guy came over to me and was like "Miss, could you get me a fork?"
-me "I, um, don't work here? *laughs*"
like I wasn't even closely dressed as an employee and no name tag uhhh?

M E M O R A B L E  S T U F F S :

having a campfire for the 4th with hot dogs and smores and kit kats and peanut butter cups

okay so I went to goodwill, found this skirt I loved, but didn't wanna spend the money. For some reason I slipped my hand into the pocket AND FOUND A $5 NO JOKE. Needless to say, that skirt is now in my closet.

cars 3 idk what to say i'm slightly affected by this growing up with disney thing


my dad coming into my room to say goodnight and then ends up practicing with my nerf gun legit #guysnevergrowup

going to Starbucks for the first time this month!!! (No I didn't get coffee haha)

running into your friends at the library and hanging out until the event

so i looked out my bedroom window and am like "ah it's so pretty." Then I see something in tree WAY WAY UP and realize it's a jump rope #lifewithbrothers



*phone rings in car*
"Its yours grandpa!"
*grunts* "it'll be a nobody. Oh wait it's Wards boat shop."

running into Wendy's and getting frostys for my siblings - they were so excited <3


W H A T  T H E  S I B L I N G S  S A Y :

Me - "how was your nap?"
Little sis - "nice. Except everyone had to wake me up. *huff*"

"We are getting out of the pool in 3 minutes okay??" -  me
"Aww man I don't want to! 5 minutes?" - sister
"2 minutes?" -me (with pretend threatening tone)
"Fine! 3!" - little sis



*my dad to my little bro who was complaining of some minor/made-up pain*
"Everything hurts more at bedtime. It's a well known fact of parenting" #omwtruth

*me sitting at table and suddenly feels a hand on my face* "WHA?!"
- little sis "you had paint on your face!!"

*picking up sticks* *little bro runs up* "here, let me do that. Let the man do it."



*sister in restaurant* *picks up kids menu* "how does she know I'm under 11?"

"Julia is a crazy driver. She killed an ogre on the way to the library." - little sis
"No way! Is that true?" - little bro
"*laughs* no...but we did see a squirrel!"- sister
(Oh. My. Word. Siblings)

"Does your eye hurt?" - me
"Yeah when I blink. But. Well. I have to do it. Can't exactly stand there with my eyes open that would be creepy." - sister

"I don't trust the washer. IT EATS SOCKS." -sarah

P O S T S  T O  B E  P R A I S E D : 

JANE MAREE DID A WHOLE POST ABOUT MY POETRY BOOK THIS GIRL DESERVES PIZZA

JON ACTUALLY PULLED OFF A LIFESTYLE POST

SARE'S PHOTOS ARE LEGIT GOALS + SHE IS POETIC K

AUDREY IS AADDOOORRAABLLLE

JESSICA BASICALLY BROKE MY HEART INTO A MILLION PIECES

AUDREY ALSO SPOKE TO ME IN THIS POST (hehe good blogging this month girl)

MY BESTIE I AM SOBBING THIS POST IS SO REAL

T H I N G S  T O  B E  N O T E D : 

  • twilight to dawn got a makeover!!!!!!! I AM SO SO SO THRILLED wanna see? Jump to this link! 
  • I lowered my goal for nano twice...failure yes or no? idk. I mean, in a way, it really really stinks but THATS OKAY. I mean.. I still got 15k done. 
  • CAMPING. (I'm actually roughing it at this moment THANK YOU BLOGGER FOR SCHEDULED POSTING)(thats why your comments won't be published right away jsyk)
  • my grandparents brought over 4 BOXES OF RECORDS (i didn't count them but THERE ARE A LOT OF GEMS IN THERE) 
  • I SURVIVED kayaking for like 4 hours without water or snacks INSANE
  • nerf battles. that's it. 
  • my garden is actually thriving????? dudes. I'm so excited IVE GOT BABY WATERMELONS so much cuteness i can't handle it 
  • i bought this amazingly fluffy soft miracle of a blanket. 

W H A T  I S  N E X T ?????? 

  • Wrapping up my novel + designing its cover and printing the first copy THEN SARAH CAN READ IT OMW IM SO NERVOUS 
  • realizing that summer is semi ending which means fall is coming and IM GRADUATED (and taking a gap year) SO WHAT IN THE WORLD THIS IS WEIRD 
  • my birthday? idk how to even think about this 
  • RELAXATION. I'm trying to take this summer thing seriously from now on. 
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so here we are. JULY IS GONE. just here is one thing that I've learned this month -- I can do a lot more than I thought on 4 hours of sleep. *nods* 

HOW WAS YOUR JULY??
TELL ME 5 THINGS THAT YOU DID THIS MONTH 

MY HAPPY PLANNER AND HOW IT WAS WORTH THE $23 + tons of pics // how this weekend went and yes i cried


YOU ASKED FOR A POST ON MY PLANNER SO HERE I AM (hope you enjoyed lookingstalking my planner photos hehehe I KNOW YOUR PLANS YOU CANNOT FOOL ME)

basically I have had a couple different planners over the past two years. The first one actually worked pretty fantastically, but legit was gigantic. I don't think I've ever had a notebook so large. Then, I moved on to my bullet journal, which was super small, but I had to make a new week sheet like constantly bc I never had enough time to plan ahead....which was really really hard for me bc I couldn't write down something which would be happening a few months in advance. uhg.

aka I was forgetting birthdays and big things like that SORRY MY FRIENDS.

I finally reached the point after I graduated and I just knew the bullet journal wasn't working anymore. I needed SOMETHING but it couldn't be something that was too small or too big, utterly blank or way too busy, covered in sections which I would never use, etc etc etc. 

I searched and searched and searched -- and found THE HAPPY PLANNER. (it lives up to it's name jsyk)

I first found it on Amazon, which was pretty neat but I was heading to town that day so I was like "okay I'll look at Walmart." THEY HAD IT. but for like $23.00. I cringed and winced and cried and whined and begged people for money (no not really jk) and finally was like "its like $2 a month." so I snapped out of it and calmed down. lol

of course tho I got home and shared about it on my insta story and a girl I know messaged me and was like I GOT THAT AT COSTCO FOR $12 AND ITS 48 MONTHS WITH STICKERS AND MARKERS TOO *crashes and booms and moans and sobs in the background*
nah. I'm fine. really. *groans* 

But, still, no matter what, it's been worth it. I'm able to plan AHEAD which is huge. I'm able to look back -- also there is enough space for me to add different things each month (like right now I am keeping my nano word count at the bottom + what I've written for the day just for my own mental count). I just really really love the freedom of having the planner planned and set for each week. (aka i'm getting lazy or really busy? I'll take the 2nd please) 

also its really cute. *grins* 

THIS WEEKEND GUYS OH GUYS OH GUYS REMEMBER HOW I TOLD YOU I WAS SO EXCITED ABOUT IT gosh. it was like a wonderful thing + a half. so so so memory filled. All I can keep thinking about was the laughs and stories told and the hugs then the saying goodbye and my grandpa telling me to go away bc I was crying. (in a total loving/choking on emotion way) 

well so far today has been the most relaxing of my entire summer. It won't last, sadly. but hey, I would get bored anyway. I'm thinking of doing another boho hair wrap also keep an eye out for my monthly post soon. It's gonna be a good one *grins* 

WHAT DO YOU USE FOR A PLANNER??
HOW BUSY/LAZY IS YOUR SUMMER?
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