APRIL MONTHLY POST

heheee you ready for a bunch of sporadic things??? K HERE WE GO 

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"I found the calendar of when you have to work" - little sis holding my work schedule 

me in store "moooommmmmmm?"
Sarah "do you know how many moms there are in the world? Srsly"

*me scrolling thru my blog* *little sis sees pic of mayo* "what's with the mayo?"

a bird pooped on my car -_-

"wanna go on a walk? I need to lumber up" my sis 
"You mean limber up?"
"Lol yeah" - my sis 

me 24/7/365 

so I was working on my book cover at the library one day and literally had two teens stand behind the computer, commenting on it LOL

me "I'm craving cinnamon rolls" 
my mom "me too"
THEN SHE MADE THEM LIKE MOM GOALS AM I RIGHT

little sister with waffle cone bowl "I am pretty sure this is how willie wonka ate his cup"

me after working 13 hrs 
"mom thanks for dinner it was so good....did I already say that?? Oh well thx" 

so like I have 10 minutes between jobs on Thursdays and yes I totally spent it at the Arby's drivethru getting jamocha shakes 😍

Me "yo fam if I made waffles rn would you eat them?"
Fam "YES" 
Me "k" 

(so yes, I made a batch of waffles @ 10pm and we just sat there eating them right away. adding chocolate chips and syrup and laughs. it was good) 

*sarah going super deep into money info*
Me "you've been doing economics huh"

my dad : "why isn't the gps working?"
Me: "dad that's google maps" 

*me behind guy on motorcycle* “he looks like he feels on top of the world rn” 
*dude waves twice to friends and peace signs to another motorcyclist* 
Me: “lol thought so” 

"Hey sis do you know the password for this? Do you remember it??"
Me :

GUESS WHAT I GOT MY PHONE CHARGER BACK LOLOLOL

me "where is my water bottle?"
friend "in your hand" 
me "oh. lol i'm going home now"

driving into town after it snows on April 15th and all the signs are like
"STAY STRONG SUMMER IS COMING" 
"STRAWBERRIES IN TWO MONTHS NO FOOLIN" 
“SPRING IS OUT THERE” 

Me *puts water bottle down* 

me driving down the road “I FORGOT MY WATER BOTTLE” 

Everyone in town on 56 degree day : ITS SUCH A WONDERFUL DAY !!!!

me: *is eating cereal* *laughs* *chokes on milk*
Sarah :"hey Julia you see this movie" 
me: *still choking* 
Sarah : "you done yet?"

HIGHLIGHTS 

• my family spent all of last sunday at one of our favorite parks. OH PEOPLE IT WAS LOVELY. lovely to be outside, to art with my sisters, swing, soak sunshine in xxx
• RELEASING MY POETRY BOOK TO YOU ALL . (p.s comment below if you want a code for 15% off until midnight tonight!!) literally guys I'm blown away with the response + sales. THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH (my ice cream fund is overflowing thx) 
• officially can say Wilson my jeep is MINE. I worked hard to hit this point and it's just hitting me that its a big milestone to truly own my first car!!! 
• ALSO SPEAKING OF WORKING HARD, starting April  30th, I'll be juggling 3 jobs for the month of May. prayers would be suuuper appreciated XD XD 
• facetiming with my besties <3 <3 
• literally am gonna say this again BUT WARM WEATHER. it was a long winter folks lolol

sorry this post is a day late... heehee kinda swamped and also kinda tired. but also kinda spending every spare moment basking in the warm sun *nods* 

LEMME KNOW WHATS NEW IN YOUR LIFE

HOW WAS YOUR APRIL 

ANY EXCITING PLANS FOR MAY???? 

THE SURPRISE - MY 2ND POETRY BOOK RELEASE !!!!!!!!

so like I've been working on putting this surprise together for a solid 2 weeks now and the hardest part was keeping it a secret from all my lovelies! BUT HERE I AM. AND IM SO SO SO SO SO PUMPED TO RELEASE MY 2ND POETRY BOOK : 

WE'RE ALL JUST A GARDEN FULL OF SOULS

my favorite part was designing the cover. hands down. It took a lot of creative time with headphones and sugary treats. lololololol I sooo badly wanted to ask all of your advice but also wanted to keep it a secret. IT WAS HARD PEOPLE. HARRRDD.

truthfully, idk what else to say bc I am flailing and screeching inside bc.....well, basically I'm working on getting my book in the system at my library. *nods* NO WORDS. NO WORDS !!!!!

also random little info about it

• these are poems that I've written over the last year + a few months. 
• it's 100 pages long 
• mainly the poems have been posted on my poetry blog BUT THERE ARE SOME NEW ONES TOO 
• its yellow. i mean, that's obvious, but OH IM SO HAPPY BC ITS YELLLOOOOWWW 
• ITS A DARLING CHILD BOOK like literally pocket book size but not bc who has that big of a pocket?!!? (it's 4.25 wide x 6.88 tall)

CLICK HERE if you wanna hold a copy in your own hands 

also like if you end up buying it, lemme know pllleeeeaase bc its super exciting to know where my book travels to. if you post a picture of it in instagram, use the #JULIARYANBOOK 

thank you my friends *hugs*

so HAPPY SATURDAY FOLKS. and *grins* hope you enjoyed the surprise! xxxxxx

BTW FREE SHIPPING UNTIL APRIL 23RD IF YOU USE THE CODE SHIPIT2018

thoughts on the cover??? 
did you have any guesses for my surprise? lololol

p.s info about my 1st poetry collection is here.  poetry blog here. 

ALL ABOUT FRIENDS [sorta]

I wish I could tell you that I had the secret to friendships being loveliness and lasting forever + ever. but if I did I would be a superhero, which I'm not..sorry. tbh I'd love it for myself too lololol

I could go into a long detailed list about how other people/friends do certain things that suddenly make you feel like you have a -108290458289 IQ level and...well THAT JUST ISN'T COOL. but truthfully, I'd like to focus on how we can be a good friends in return. I've struggled with the thought process of "oh well, why should I be the friend who does the nice things or says the nice things when they just sit there doing nothing" for a really long time.

the thing with having friendships is eEVVERRYONE is DIFFFERENT.  there can't possibly be a cookie cutter template on how to have the perfect friendship (LOL AND DON'T ASK FOR 5 EASY STEPS) bc we as humans are individuals with ideals, goals, hidden agendas (or not), blessings to share, lessons to glean from and give, and most importantly, feelings.

myself being a friend to A LOT of amazing peeps out there, I know there is a special something that we tend to connect on.

for me it might be :

• Jesus (tbh it's usually Him) 
• things we have in common. ie. writing, reading, goals 
• a conversation where a glimpse of the heart shows and I'm like OK WOW I GET YOU
• food lololololol

the list would go a mile if I let it. but you get the gist. in fact, you probably know it of yourself.

also BEWARE bc the words that come out of your mouth can be heard way different than the way you heard them in your head. listen to your tone, pay attention to the reaction, and most importantly, be aware of the trauma your friend has endured. indeed. (bc lol you could be talking about ice cream and that might be something that freaks them out or something (OH SADNESS AM I RIGHT))

be the friend you'd love to have.
aka treat others as you want to be treated.
or "love your neighbor as yourself" -Jesus

truthfully, it can't be all that hard. obviously don't be put all of your energy into a friend who takes enjoyment out of bullying/teasing/putting you down - but don't give up on that friend. you may be the only one willing to do that.

p.s. BE ON THE LOOK OUT FOR THE SURPRISE THIS WEEKEND. I'm hoping to have it ready + a blogpost explaining it by Sat. or Sun. SOOO EXCITED. literally flailing.

THOUGHTS ON FRIENDSHIPS + SOMETHING YOU'VE LEARNED??? 
WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING RN

DARE TO BE HAPPY AGAIN

I worked like 14 hrs yesterday, so when I came home and remembered that I should of had a post ready, I opened my laptop in hopes of some inspiration. the post title is something I've been pondering A LOT lately but actually fitting it into words???.. yeah I basically closed my laptop super fast bc I was like "nothing is coming rn"

tbh, still nothing super deep is coming. maybe I'm trying too hard. it's just that recently I've seen a different side of me. For like forever I've been the person who gets hardcore excited over little things. I was smiley and thrilled to wake up to a new day [with no mistakes in it. QUOTE ANYONE?! XD] but then, I got tired.

being tired does something to a human being. everything is off. everything takes waaaaay more energy, which you don't even have to begin with. Believe me, I KNOW.

but tbh, I don't want to relate to it anymore. I'm pretty sick and tired of being unhappy bc of blahblahblahblah. ya get me? now, I'm not all about individuals being happy 24/7 bc that just isn't going to happen. We do live in a fallen world after all.. but I wanna go back to the little things that made me grin. also I'm ready to laugh with ease.

I'm not willing to admit that this is just a part of growing up. I will NOT accept that. and well, if it is, I'd like to change that stereotype.

it's become cool to be tired, overwhelmed, stressed, depressed (totally know that depression is REAL..but maybe in some cases its being welcomed?). I feel like we think we need a tag to staple on our shirts so we feel heard.

IM TIRED
I AM STRESSED
I AM HUNGRY
IM JUST READY FOR THIS DAY TO BE DONE
IM MAD+ANGRY+SAD

while I understand that situations do cause these feelings, it becomes 5x more exhausting to hold onto them. (speaking from experience)

so maybe you can dare to be happy again? dare to smile. dare to laugh. dare to be yourself.
THE WORLD NEEDS MORE OF THIS. especially on a Wednesday lololol

also God gave me a little message for you all : GO HERE 

Also also IM WORKING ON A SURRRRRRPPPRRRIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEE
cannot wait to share it with you all. xD

honest thoughts?? something you'd like to add?  
favorite disney soundtrack? 

p.s. these are all my thoughts...sorry if they don't make sense or offend. xxx

WHO ARE WE DOING THINGS FOR ??

humans are people pleasers. at least, I know I tend to be. I always wonder how my actions might impacts those around me. sometimes that is good and others it becomes a road block for me. I want to be dependable. I want to be available as much as possible. I want people to look at me and go "yup. She can do it"

aka I WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO EVERYTHING

now, I'm not a perfectionist. (I don't have patience for that lol) BUT i do dearly wish to have a long list of accomplished skills. which I don't think is a bad thing. I've always been encouraged to try something new. I was just talking to my mom + dad about taking more work hours on each week and my mom was like "you can do it." so I'm gonna try bc lol I'd rather try than not.

here is where I started thinking and wondering lol

WHAT AM I DOING THESE THINGS FOR. bc the money I'm making is paying for the car insurance and gas money and phone bill and all those grown up things + savings. There are moments when I wonder why I'm even exhausting myself for dollar bills and something with 4 wheels you know? Maybe I just see things differently. I totally see the worth in working + am UTTERLY blessed. I can't thank God enough for my jobs. if anything, this question has made me think less of the daily work shift income to more of the daily life WHAT AM I DOING THESE THINGS FOR? (i.e everything)

I truly want to be able to say that every moment I do is for God, but I don't think I can...which is a strange awakening. Lately I've been listening to Different by Micah Tyler like....lol lots a times in one day. Its exactly how I'm feeling rn.

I don't need to recognize, the man in the mirror
And I don't wanna trade Your plan, for something familiar
I can't waste a day, I can't stay the same

I wanna be different
I wanna be changed
'Til all of me is gone
And all that remains
Is a fire so bright
The whole world can see
That there's something different
So come and be different
In me

idk. it's just exactly what I'm praying for. it's not easy and it certainly doesn't come without some bending and learning. but dude its something I'm fighting for.

p.s. it's april 4th and its snowing.......................i'm not thrilled lol
p.p.s GO ALL YOU NANOERS (if that isn't a word it is now....) I haven't even started on my goal o.o

can you relate to this post??
one song with deep meaning for you rn?