87 POUNDS OF BLUEBERRIES + TAKING A GAP YEAR + FIREWORKS + PAINTING STAIRS // whats new [camp nano day 11]

me: *peacefully listening to music* *realizes its christmas music* *screams and scrambles to turn it off* NO CHRISTMAS MUSIC IN JULY OK

I'm kinda falling behind in a lot of stuff, yet not. Idk how that is possibly a thing, but I just keep on moving the things I didn't get done on the to-do list for the new day and so forth until everything is completed. except, during nano, I would not recommend doing that for your word count. You'll end up having to write 3k in one day or else you'll be so far behind..... totally not speaking from experience. nah. who me? nope. *hyperventilates* 

actual footage of me somedays

but then again, there are so many beautiful moments. Like sporadic adventures such as buying a pop-up camper off of craiglist and playing in moonsand with the little boy there. WHAT IN THE WORLD IS MOONSAND MADE OUT OF. its like moss and sand and uh. idk. its really neat and I'm slightly obsessed. shh.

or I could talk about picking a lot a lot of blueberries. that's basically all I have to say. Just don't expect me to eat much else after picking for two hours straight. One for the bucket, two for me - that's how I roll. *grins* 

My grandpa brought fireworks over on the 4th and yesss that was terrific. We had never really done anything like that before...so it was just one of those things that you'll always remember. Always.

painting stairs on the other hand hahahhahahahahahaaaaaa just isn't the funnest thing to do. (don't ever try painting half at once and then doing the other half like a day or so later. doesn't work. YOU SEE THE LINE VERY CLEARLY. *moans and yanks at hair* #thethingsyoutry)

lets face it this is also me 

and yes, I am taking a gap year. I did orientation and testing for college (yes I survived) but after a lot of thought and prayer and talking and pro vs con lists I was just like "YA KNOW WHAT not right now" and seriously the second after I made that decision, all I felt was relief. I'm still working my summer job + just applied for a job at my library (PRAY PLEASE) and going day by day, writing my novel, gardening, swimming and sibling bonding --- I know this is right.

btw, I am so overwhelmed with jane maree --- she did this amazing post about my poetry book IM JUST SOBBING K

also I'm craving a crazy baking experience. any dessert suggestions???

EVER PICK BLUEBERRIES (or any other fruits?) 

WHAT DECISION HAVE YOU MADE RECENTLY THAT BROUGHT RELIEF?