I'm getting older. I admit it bc it's truth, right? and it feels like as every second passes by, I'm speeding along with it, unable to keep my head very high above the water (jsyk there will probably be a lot of water metaphors in this post #beeninthelakeallday) I want the best of each moment. I want to live and live and live without burning out (oh and fire metaphors #campfire) but here is the deal
I CAN'T.
bc i get tired and grumpy and exhausted and last night I slept for 9 hours straight. Guys, that was the most I've had in...like...i don't even know how long. the fact is, I don't know how to rest, relax..chill. at all.
Right now, I'm on a spontaneous holiday. *grins at shelby* legit, not even two full days to plan for a week away in a cabin on the lake so ya know, we threw some bags together and left. Just like that. and my mind was screaming WHAAAAAAT HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN bc I plan things. I have a massive to-do list. I work all day and then cram things I want to do at night and it's like..is this good for me? probably not????? *sits quietly and blinks*
so what do I do? I DO IT EVERY DAY.
I was sitting in the dock tonight just sitting - I was thinking about how often I am quiet and legit how rare that is. (i have problems talking ok?) Quiet hurts. We all know this...it's a strange mixture of nothing and volumes of loudness. I admit it. I don't like it really...which is why I just go and go until I can't anymore. but, I need to stop that. from what I've heard, resting is pretty nice.
tomorrow is the solar eclipse. I must admit, I find it kinda scary. I don't think I'll be looking at it...I saw an article of an guy who has permanent damage in his eye since the solar eclipse in 1962. no thanks, lol.
Right now, my family is watching the old Ma and Pa Kettle episodes. They are wonderful and make me laugh. My hair is wet bc sarah and I went out on paddle boards at dark to watch the rest of the sunset and my face is sunburnt. I'm full with s'mores and hamburgers and laughs. It's beautiful to learn how to rest.
I'm going to end this post short for today. I think it seems right, don't you? perhaps we all need to relax for a bit. It's surprising how lovely it is to sit and stare into the middle of nowhere for once. (except I can't help but think about my garden at home lol)
also. packing is weird. You pack a billion things then just end up wearing the same few items over and over again. I need to learn the tricks. help? + what's your favorite photo???
HOW DO YOU REST?!??!
WHERE DID YOU GO TO ON HOLIDAY THIS YEAR?
That first and second-last picture are amazing. <33
ReplyDeleteOKAY BUT THIS SOUNDS SO MUCH LIKE ME. *ahem* I schedule myself waaaay overfull and expect to be able to keep up with my own plans. I fail. I try again the next month with /just as many/ expectations. And fail again. And I just can't seem to get the point?? (like right now. I can be really annoyed and confused at myself but still not change what I do at all and ugggh it doesn't even make sense.)
I remember when there was a solar eclipse here...I watched it. MAYBE THAT'S WHY I WEAR GLASSES. XD (shhh I actually have them for a completely different reason but anyway XP)
Ohh, I feel you. I only rest because I've eventually realized I NEED to, and it is NOT a waste of time. At least once every day (if I can), I like to go outside, find a nice sunny spot, and write in my journal, pray and clear my thoughts. Just sitting. Thinking. Doing "nothing". It does wonders. Even if it's just 10 minutes, it makes everything so much better. And if you have trouble making yourself, then WRITE IT ON YOUR TO-DO LIST!! (Speaking from experience here. I have weird things on my to-do list. For example, "Spend time relaxing", "Chill".)
ReplyDelete(Oh, and yeah. I've changed my Google+ name from Miss Meg to Gabby A. I think it's going to confuse a lot of people, but I chose to do it because otherwise I'm going to confuse MYSELF.)
Great post! Sounds like you have been having fun!! :-) (And BTW, I'm currently getting over a cold, but once I'm healthy I'm going to try to record the song I wrote off of your poem. I know, I know, it took me long enough. :-) So, I was thinking maybe I could just invite you to my blog, and then I can post it on there so you can see it? If you don't want me to post it on there since it is YOUR poem, I totally understand! Just let me know what you want me to do.)
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I am having a B L A S T . <333333 (and oh my goodness EEEP I AM SO EXCITED GIRL. And also wow I am glad you're getting over your cold. geesh. Those things stink. :P YES TOTALLY INVITE ME! I send my email address to Savannah, so she can tell you what it is. I totally don't mind you posting it, girl! *squeals* CAN'T WAIT!) and also THANK YOU *hugs*
DeleteLOVE THE PICTURES!!!!
ReplyDeleteI love Ma and Pa Kettle too!! They're the BEST!!
I want to be where you are SOO BAD! It's ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS!!
- Maddy | littlebitofsunshineweb.blogspot.com
EEP THANKS!!!!!!!!!
Deleteomw. AREN'T THEY? legit. the bomb.
hahhaha!! It is really gorgeous..you're right <3 *runs outside to swim*
YES. I so agree. Resting is hard, but *that's when God speaks loudest* - when we're quiet and finallly able to listen. SAME HERE, K. I keep going and going...and I feel the wear of it all. Keep resting, Ju. <333 WE CAN DO THIS. *dramatically sobs* Paddleboards at sunset?!?!?! AMAZING. *really wants to be there with you* *hugs you*
ReplyDelete*nods* yes girl, you are so right. wow seriously, YES <333 and I will. YOU TOO K. lol yes paddeboarding at sunset was amazing. I wanna do it again for SURE *really wants you to be here too* *hugs you*
DeleteMy fave pic is totally #2, and I rest by sitting in my puffy lil chair and writing poetry or reading a mystery novel. xD Or listening to a calm book-on-tape and hand lettering in the afternoon. #man Hamburgers and s'mores are the best!!
ReplyDeleteMy family went to Oregon for two weeks, and it was the most gorgeous thing!!!
This was seriously very refreshing,
Amelia xxx
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That seems to be a favorite! I've been taking a lot more like that...can't wait to post them! Those are like the best ways to relax <333
Deleteooohh!! I KNOW OMW IT IS SO PRETTY
aww thanks Amelia <3
Awesome!! I can't wait to see them. xxxxx
DeleteMy favorite picture might be the second one... that looks like a really nice place!
ReplyDeleteI went on vacation to Florida in April, and now my family is going to go to a family reunion in not too long! :D
I really love that one too!! and OMW IT IS THE BEST.
Deleteooohhh I've never been there, but I would love too! And, family reunions are fantastic!
Uhhhh this is lovely! <3 I'm so glad you are enjoying your rest! <3
ReplyDeleteuhm, darling, YOU ARE LOVELY. <3 I love you girl!!!
DeleteI am like not really a spontaneous person but I almost want to be. Like is that weird? Haha. Awesome post!
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I feel the same way! Spontaneous can be uncomfortable but so much fun too <33
DeleteWhat a great topic, especially in the 'instant' and 'microwave' culture we live in. A favorite way to rest is going outside in the evenings, and watching the sunset.
ReplyDeleteLovely post & pictures, as always, Julia! ♥
bahaha! We are instant mashed potato people, huh? those are wonderful ways to relax!
Deleteaww thanks girl <3
Okay yeah those are REALLY PRETTY PICTURES <3 <3 <3
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oh yeah you are REALLY PRETTY AWESOME K <3333
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