it feels like a long time since I've sat down to write a blogpost. I know, I know, it was only last week. but I now see that I am missing writing from my heart rather than a bedroom tour or monthly post. STILL LOVE THOSE but it's different.
first off, HELLO MARCH.
SECONDLY, I'm ready to cut to the point. I've been dealing with some February/March blues. where I live, winter seems unending. absolutely so. you basically wait and wait and wait for a glimpse of warmth. and well, last week we had a stunning break of 20 degrees above average. (like 60 degrees what) It awakened every ounce of excitement in me. today, its snowing. suddenly waking up is harder. suddenly 5pm feels like midnight. suddenly i'm not talkative or well, I'm not who i normally am (which 10000000% isn't normal lol)
I'm fully knowing that this is something I'm dealing with for. rn. not forever. i'm a human though and for some humanly reason a moment happened in my thoughts of
WHERE IS GOD WHEN I NEED HIM
*smacks thyself in face 500x* It gets exhausting to fall down again you know.....bc HELLO YES I KNOW THAT GOD IS ALWAYS BESIDE ME. I KNOW HE DOESN'T LEAVE. I KNOW. but I want to grow (lol k so suddenly i just remembered about my EXPAND + GROW SERIES lolololololol) and not slip back into the needy relationship but more of the faithful relationship.
but also for this very reason, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue, to virtue knowledge, to knowledge self-control, to self control perseverance, to perseverance godliness, to godliness brotherly kindness, and to brotherly kindness love. FOR IF THESE THINGS ARE YOURS AND ABOUND YOU WILL BE NEITHER BARREN NOR UNFRUITFUL IN THE KNOWLEDGE OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST.
and this is where I scream AMEN. and also jsyk i decided to just open my bible for some comfort and 2 Peter 1 : 5-11 jumped at me. thanks God xxxxx
for he who lacks these things is shortsighted, even to blindness, and has forgotten that he was cleansed from his old sins. therefore brethren be even more diligent to make your call and election SURE, for if you do these things you will never stumble; for so an entrance will be supplied to you abundantly into the everlasting kingdom of our Lord and SAVIOR Jesus Christ
so in answer to my own question : God is always ALWAYS by my side. but well, I still gotta do my part. *nods* yup, that's where I'm at right now.... hbu?
are you struggling too? BUT WE AREN'T GIVING UP YES???!!
whatcha doing this march?
I love this post, Julia! I've been feeling the same--it's been so drab and bleak here, rain and more rain. "God is always by my side. but well, I still gotta do my part." --YES. I've been trying to read my Bible more, as I know it will help with my mood.
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first off, allison you're literally always my first comment so THANK YOU! and yussssssssss, I feel you. totally totally. MMM YES IT WILL. keep going. keep smiling. xxxx
DeleteSometimes it feels very hard to trust God and stay cheerful and happy, especially with all this bleak, cold weather. (I don't like Winter or snow very much. XD) But you've got to stay faithful and remember God knows what He's doing.
ReplyDelete~Lydia~ <3
mmm girl yes, I get you. Its a dry season (even tho its very white and wet outside lol) BUT IT WILL END. we are in 2018 and well, I am glad to say we don't live in Narnia. ;)
DeleteLove this. I definitely needed this. I feel like I need to grow more in my relationsip with God and sometimes it's a struggle. But knowing He is beside me makes all the difference. <3
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*hugs* that's a true feeling! AND YES YOU ARE SO RIGHT. it makes all the difference, for sure. <3
DeleteYes, I've been struggling. Lots of personal stuff going on right now, but NO NOT GIVING UP.
ReplyDeleteHugs and prayers, girl. <3
awww girl. IMMA PRAYING <3 Remember, we can do all things IN CHRIST who strengthens us. bc He is EVERYTHING <3
DeleteI love love LOVE winter and hate hate HATE summer, so I am just reversed seasons. Actually, I live in SC, so summer is right around the corner. Fun?
ReplyDeletewhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttt! GIRL you should move north and I'd be willing to say lol that would change fast ;)
DeleteI've found that whenever I need to feel God's presence, turning on some worship music and really listening to it helps clear my mind. And also reading some of my favourite messages about God. (I'd really recommend "Live Original" blog, if you are ever in need of a quick encouragement!)
ReplyDeleteAlso, I understand about gloominess. I LOVE summer and warmer weather, and we're diving into autumn right now - it's cooled down so quickly already! I hate winter, and I reaaaally don't want it to come. :P
woah, Gabby, I love how you step in here and instantly start encouraging me!! THANK YOU BEYOND WORDS THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you're precious.
Deleteand aww, get you there. I hate to say it but IF ITS GETTING COLD THERE MAYBE THE WARM IS COMING HERE?!?!?!??!? dare I hope? lol
God is always ALWAYS by my side. but I still gotta do my part. <---YES YES YES.
ReplyDeleteWe got a small spurt of warm weather last week or so too, but it's back to 40ish degrees for the rest of this week and next week. ALTHOUGH!!! It'll be back up to the 60s again next weekend (hopefully) so I'm looking forward to that.
LOOK AT THE HOPE IN THE WARM WEATHER. lets pray God will turn the heat up a little XD XD
DeleteYESS I LOVE HOW YOU WORK THROUGH THESE THINGS WITH ENCOURAGEMENT + POSITIVITY + TRUTH.
ReplyDeleteTotally with you girlfriend. xxxx
AWWW THANK YOU AMELIA. *hugs*
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There has been a lot going on in my life for the past few days, but I know that He is right here beside me, helping all of us get through it. Thanks so much for this <333
ReplyDeleteOh, and I tagged you over on my blog :)
maddy || little bit of sunshine
totally understand where you're coming from..for sure <3 Aww girl of course.
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This past week has been CRAZY busy. Music Festival runs this week and last week, and we performed Tuesday and Wednesday. Orchestra was Tuesday night and Suzy's mandolin solo, and Wednesday was my solo on cello and Suzy on violin. We were going to do a trio with our older sister, but she got sick day of and had to pull out. So there was no trio, and no accompanist for our solos. I was praying like crazy before my solo that I would play well, keep my cookies where they belong, and not forget my solo (been there done that with the forgetting... not my best performance at music festival to say the least.). And afterwards I was like THANK YOU GOD!!!!(I survived in case you were worried;)).
ReplyDeleteI totally get feeling like God's AWOL sometimes. Not sure I've felt it myself, but I can understand it.
I totally love winter... when it's not -40 and I can wear my sweater outside. I find winter feels very pure and clean with the snow. Plus I get to drink hot chocolate like it's coffee and not die afterwards of overheating... hehe.
Janice
Ahhhh loved this!!
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